Keep You Much Longer

Finals finals.. not that hectic IF....

you study throughout the year, 

you overcome your feelings as time is nearing, 

you had great study group, 

you had discipline in your studies,

you had great friends to hang out with, 

you had a rival and a friend at the same time, 

you know to look for after exam 

and 

you smile a lot....

agree? agree?

alright i'll shall stop now

hmmm....

nvm i think i continue with......... "here..."

and... tadaaa!! (look below please)

here is a story.. it is obvious not written by me!!

HOW DO YOU BUILD A BETTER WORLD????

How do you build a better world? that is the question that  has puzzled mankind for centuries. Many things have been tried. Some have helped and some haven't. I think, though, that I was given a part of the answer just the other day.

My brother had just cleaned out his closet. It was something I needed to do as well even though I was afraid I might get lost in there and not find my way back out. When he brought over some of the extra clothes to my Dad's house, he asked me to look through them and see if there was anything I could use. I ended up just picking out a few pair of short pants to replace my worn out cut off jeans. I couldn't see keeping more cloths that I didn't need. I volunteered instead to take the rest of them over to the Goodwill store and donate them for him.

I loaded his clothes in the back of my car and then decided to brave the clutter of my own closet to add to his donation. It was a scary sight opening that door. The mess was tremendous.Still, the thought of doing something good for another spurred me on and kept me going. It took a long time, but I got it done. I was left with a much emptier closet, but a much fuller heart. As I carried my own bags of clothes to add to my brothers I couldn't help but smile. It was then that I saw how we all can go about building a better world.

We can do it one kind act of a time. 

We can do it one gift of charity at a time. 

We can do it one shared smile at a time. 

We can do it one uplifting word at a time. 

We can do it one heartfelt hug at a time. 

We can even do it one donated shirt at a time. 

We can build a better world with each act of love we share and good thing we do. 

We can do it with helpful hands and caring hearts. 

We can do it with cheerful spirits and joyous souls. 

We can do it knowing that God and His angels are smiling upon us and helping us every step of the way.

~Joseph J. Mazzella~

why don't we start now??

c ya!!~~

:)

About A Girl

i change my blog template a bit or maybe alot..
hahaha i duno...
i think i prefer the old 1..
or maybe i might chose another theme later la..
oh my..
im that bored..
hahahha
anyway majorities win ok
if you like it then i dun change but if not then I WIN!!!
lolx.. time limit?
im not sure..
until there is a comment or a sign la
:P

Half Of My Heart

Have you got a feeling that you want to sing along to a song being played in the car or radio or music player or anywhere else? 

Especially those catchy catchy or "you like" or "use to like" or "you know" or there are too many types of types of song...

but anyway songs..

they are the best thing in life too.. 

no matter what kind of songs Soul, R&B, Blue, Jazz, Rock, Metal, Hip Hop, Pop, Country, Religious, Classical, A Cappella, Techno, Dance or Other?? it will continue to play in our head and eventually we start to move our mouth, legs, hand, head or even started to dance.. 

it is not a bad thing i mean its a good thing cause sometimes song can change a person mood..

lets say you are listening to happy songs you started to be happy and started to sing along with the song or just go nuts cause later you need the mood to face certain kind of situation or maybe its your free time but you know that by listening to happy songs you have a positive thinking or wanted to be happy..

(lalalalalalalala o(^.^)o)

lets say you are listening to emotional songs which can lead you to depressing moments but you still sing along cause its nice to hear knowing it will break your heart for every single word they say it reminds you of those times that you were "happy" or you can't have or regretted..

(yes i know i'm bad >:D)

lets say you are listening to techno or metal with the right environment and company you started to lose control of yourself and the next thing you know its not a very nice thing to remember or maybe its an experience..

(i will be like this ("=.=") when it happened)

let say you are listening to study mood song (YES!! there are study mood song) you are actually switching on your nerd mode and face the book to study and not "facebook"!!! or read something to gain knowledge/leisure..

(study~study~study~study~.. why am i blogging????)

lets say you are listening to instrumental song especially piano, you are preparing to go to sleep........ 

(zzzz(-o-)zzzzzzzzzzzzz)

oops.. tertidur.. hahaha anyway songs are wonderful don't you think??

alright Goodnight!!

"Half of my heart got a grip on the situation; 

half of my heart takes time;

half of my heart got a mile run that i can keep loving you; 

can keep loving you; 

oh~ half of my heart"

 - Half Of My Heart, John Mayer -

Naturally

hmmmm...

i'm bored..

seriously bored..

i mean after JIN EE ask me to call him then i'm totally bored

hey Jin Ee if you are reading this i have to say that today i had the same situation as you!!!

roommates all went out (not all la),

shops are close

no food

but at least i'm better!!! :P

i go find food and i got stock!!!

*laugh* at you!!

lolx...

alright back to the start...

i'm bored..

hmmmm...

"lets write something random"

*look around*

saw mouse

"nah"

saw book

"lazy to study now"

*stop*

*smile*

"hi speaker..."

alright alright i know this sounds out of mind

i'm writing about speaker..

speaker is a wonderful thing

why not?

i know its troublesome to bring it around especially when your lap top speaker is spoil due to constantly blasting without any chance of soften it down..

serve you right!!

*laugh*

lolx.. i'm bad

anyway

nobody lap top speaker in this unit are spoil so i'm just crapping just now

oh where were we?

*scroll up*

ok speaker

is a wonderful thing

why?

take note ya!

speaker make noise when plug into the lap top

lap top shut up when plugged in

familiar??

no???

no???

its just like US!

Do you have a friend that acts like a 'speaker' in part of your life??

or

Are you a 'speaker' for someone or a friend in your life??

or

You are your own 'speaker'?

speaker is like stepping up for someone when he/she is helpless or speechless or "i got your back, don't worry" kind of situation,

but after that don't ask for payment la,

you will only spoil the moment where he/she looks up to you,

(except for the fact it cant be carried around wherever we go)

i remember 1 time during basketball,

i keep on thinking that our team is gona lose for sure cause the opponent looks bigger, faster and sharper,

looks only you know,

if looks can change my mood of playing then i really got no mood for the game already,

just waiting to lose only,

and i'm tired,

but i keep asking,

"can win ah? can win ah?"

of course don't want to lose face la,

ask for the sake of confirming only,

at that time i remember Jin Ee, Zi Peng, Edric, Jason and me (correct me if i'm wrong)

the opponent was strangers,

but they look better than us..

and i ask Jin Ee at that time,

his reply was

"PASS ME THE BALL!!!"

i pass lor..

he ran from half court and put in the ball.....

i............. smile............. in awe

coming back he said,

"loser"

at all of us.

then that's it la,

i semangated and start playing properly,

we tapau them,

i'm sure somebody have done that to you and you have done that to others as well, without realizing it,

so be a speaker! (metaphorically)

don't be a spoil speaker,

be a speaker that shared strength with whoever you are plug in to and not to those you are familiar with only and that way you are everyones best friends..

*laugh*

i just crap a lot..

:).

All In

Have i shared with you how wonderful God is?

well...

this was a long long time ago

i was still a little boy

to be precise

i'm a timid, shy and constantly having thoughts but afraid to share them

i'm introvert that's what they say

i'm not mature

i'm slow

i just like to play

i don't like to worry about other people

the world resolve around me and just me

i use to think "its not my business so i don't care"

thennnnn...

until a moment of time

i want to open up..

i went to sunday school see other kids playing around while i sit at the back just observing and not mixing around like other kids are doing..

then when they say "lets pray"

i don't know what to do until i see everyone bow down their head, put their hands together and close their eyes

i followed..

after they say "amen"

i don't know how i somehow understood that and open my eyes..

when its the next time they pray i tried asking something that i wouldn't do

"Lord, its my first time praying, can i ask for something?, i want friends, please. thank you amen."

the next thing i know.. i'm back to my usual self again

until a few years..

where suddenly people came in...

at 1st they started knocking

*knock* *knock* *knock*

"hi i'm ___ from ____ how are you?"

*no response*

*silence*

*smile*

then they start pulling

"aunty aunty can Ben come out to the field and play with us?"

"i'll wake him up, wait just a moment ya"

"BEN come la lets go"

"alright alright"

and we cycle to the field and start playing catch or just chit chatting

then i learn to do the same

*knock* *knock* *knock*

"hi i'm Ben from 3 blocks away from where you are standing right now, how are you?"

*no response*

*silence*

*smile*

God answered my prayer

it doesn't matter how long it takes it is still answered

look up, look how vast is the sky

look down and your view is narrowed

difference?

sky = God created = bigger than you = bigger than your problem + it is wonderful = calm

view narrowed = not clear + no direction = more problems = stress

oh oh and don't forget toooo

SMILE!!!

Knock you Down

investigators are awesome! you know even with just very little clue, they can still catch the crime suspect and put him/her behind bars unless the crime suspect can really outsmart them then that's a different level and please don't try it you will eventually get caught..

the question is...

is judgement really there after he went to jail??

is there really a fair trade??

if there is then what if he commits a murder why is he in jail?

why is he not dead?

a life for a life? no?

if not at least bring back my love 1.. then it will be fair

HEY PEOPLE!!!

get out of the ABYSS and start looking through what you had said and your feelings!!

you can't change the fact that he/she is gone

and you can't KILL for the sake of a fair trade!!

why?

cause if you do, you will be following his/her footsteps and if the world is like that, the world's population will be 0 in just a moment of time!!

you kill her, they kill you, your bro kill them, their bro kill your bro, your bro friend kill their bros, their sis kill your bro friend and his family, and so on until the world's population dies. its like a chain reaction with the death toll increasing everyday and the cause you kill her.. heck i don't have time to make babiess if i have to worry that someone out there is gonna kill me.. AND NO TIME TO SLEEP always on the lookout.. and eventually...........

what can we do??

for the start people come and go

stop being depress and move on

his/her death won't go wasted seeing you moved on

live for the better and not the worst

look for God

look for family members

look for friends

look for yourself!!!

pray for strength and forgiveness

after doing all those,

face the convict...

Alright im changing the topic here.. cause it's not my place for me to write this kinda of stuff and i never experience a loss one through murder before. if you had and you had found the right attitude to go through this obstacle please share it with your friends and i know you will be just the right person to look for when this incident happen in your circle of friends.

uni's life = funny.. when you are living with people that are kind, nerds and fun.. my unit itself consists of 6 tables 5 occupy with laptop, 1 with snacks, 1 with kettle, 2 with printer, 2 with mini speakers and there are still enough space for books, bottles and a place to do homework.. and my unit is full, means there are 6 nerds staying here.. :P

hmmmm......... everyday its like a blasted speakers in the room with songs being played, or the sound of a game that sounded "KILLING SPREEEEEE!!!" from the game call DOTA, or even a sound from one laptop watching drama and then everyone will take a peek at it everytime we passes by to the toilet or just to take a peek la..

"i wana feel the rain again, i wana feel the water on my skin, i just really wana wash it down"

-"Downpour" BackstreetBoys

Graduation

fuyoh its been awhile i post anything here.. anyways.. i've been very lazy to post anything here thats why its so inactive at the moment.. dun worry.. its because of boredom ben had 2 change the header that suits this page perfectly.. *laugh*.. lol alright i gt a question for you folks (if you are the only 1 reading my blog)..
ARE YOU WILLING TO TAKE THE RISK????????

yea and the best part is only you know the answer so deal with it yo!!

but i like to state that there are 2 possible chances.. you either get big return or big loss.. its up2u.. but i like to lecture abit.. life is a race n when you leave life have you finished the race?

So its up to you to decide, to learn, to live the way you want, desire, "I'm not gonna be you" style, or any kind of method you wish for yourself..

if you are down, only you can gather yourself together once more and fight once again.

Its no use when your friends try to help you but you yourself dont want to fight and dont blame your friends because they are not there.

its because you didnt want to share and only wanted them to found out.

this will only lead to more depressing moments..

its not because you dont have friends its because you are not a good friend yourself and you always express things to yourself and not to others or you express to much to others maybe thats why you are annoying and because of that only a handful of people can take it..

Break the barrier and start taking risk to learn from mistakes and dont always try to prevent things you wont learn that way..

just like exam.. once you get your result and your result is bad you will be moody for awhile then after that you start to look back and knowing your mistakes may help you in the future and thats how we learn! (oops.. im not a top scorer :P)..

last i'll like to post a quote from a movie for those of

YOU WHO STILL THINKS THAT YOU ARE LIVING UNDER SOME PEOPLE'S SHADOW!!

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows its a very mean and nasty place and i don't care how tough you are it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it.
You mere nobody is gonna hit as hard as life! But ain't about how hard you hit its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much you can take and keep moving forward, thats how winning is done!
Now, if you know whats your worth now, go out and get whats your worth!
But you got to be willing to take the hits and not pointing fingers, saying:

"You ain't where u want to be because of him or her or anybody!"
Cowards do that!!!! and that ain't you, you are better than that!

-quoted from Rocky Balboa IV (2006) movie =)

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